Saturday, January 12, 2013
Today something interesting happened to me. I was in town with my son walking around and doing some shopping. Out of no where this group of young men passed me and then for no reason yelled to me " You're a Fat Cow and should be locked in a cage". The fact he said this to me didn't bother me as I am used to being insulted by strangers because of my weight but what did bring tears to my eyes was my son. He is only 3 years old and he turned to me and said " Mommy, why did that man say mean things to you?". Just the simple fact that my son had to witness that killed me inside. I could see that it bothered him and I had to try to explain that sometimes people are just mean for no reason.
I just hate how cruel and ignorant people can be in this world. What bothers me is the fact my child has to grow up in this world where it seems people are having less and less respect for others. My cousin who is handicap has had to spend her entire life being made fun of and I just find it unfair and horrible that people are so cruel. It truely doesn't bother me when people say things to me as I know that they have their own issue's and that's why they are trying to take focus off themselves because truthfully they have low self esteem. But as a mother I want to protect my child and when he is hurting it hurts me. Today some idiot hurt my child by insulting me in front of him and that really got me so angry.
Anyway, I'm finished ranting now! Haha! On a good note! I did well today with everything! I only got half a work out in because I am still feeling sick but half is better than nothing and I don't want to over do it. Everything is going great and I am excited about my future. I am loving life right now and most importantly I am loving myself. I am proud of myself for what I have accomplished so far. It might be a small step but I have put in 100% each and every day and I plan on continueing putting in 100%.