I can't describe the feeling
Saturday, January 12, 2013
For the most part PCOS has been this incredibly overbearing obstacle to overcome. The constant struggle with weight gain, the carbohydrate cravings, lack of a regular period....and those are just the few that i struggle with. There are so many other symptoms and complications that others struggle with every single day. But Thursday, this changed.
Never before have I had a normal menstrual cycle without assistance from prescription drugs in the form of fertility meds, birth control, progesterone shot etc. However on Thursday, I woke up and went to the bathroom and when I wiped I found I had started my cycle. On my own. Without medical intervention. And this was exactly 30 days after my last cycle stopped. I don't know if this means I actually ovulated or not, that's a question I want to ask my doctor. But the feeling that overcame me when I entered this date into my period tracker app was incredible. I actually cried. Amongst my weight struggle and the miles of running and hours of cardio I do with barely any budge on the scale, my body responded in a way only someone that struggles with PCOS can understand. It gives me hope, encouragement, something to work towards when I really don't want to get my butt of the couch or I want to throw in the towel and give into that carbohydrate craving. I'll think back to that moment and know that it's worth it, every single struggle, it's worth it. PCOS will not get the best of me. I won't let it.