Saturday, January 12, 2013
What a week! I do believe that the course of antibiotics not only got rid of the infection, but also purged my body of all the Remeron. All of a sudden, terrible side effects again and wickedly depressed and ragged. Insomnia. Stomach problems. Irritability. I feel sorry for my students. They were beastly and I was beastly as well. It was a long week.
Even with all the issues, I have still done the 30 Day Shred every day. I just finished day 3 of Level 3. Absolutely surreal. There's one move I just cannot manage to do: in a plank pose on the hand weights, doing alternating rows and leg lifts. My legs keep giving out. But I'm hanging in there, even with the ridiculous difficulty of shadow boxing and jumping jacks with hand weights. I feel good when I've finished each day. I think it's the only thing keeping me from going on a smack-in-the-head spree at work. The exercising gets rid of the exhaustion and irritation.
I haven't weighed myself in a few days. I'm kind of afraid to. I'm going through another bout of frustration. It feels like I'm barely eating anything, and exercising until my muscles feel like jelly, and yet my clothes are not getting any looser, and I'm not seeing much improvement in the mirror. I'm suspecting that what I need to do is add a second session of cardio in the morning before work, but it's hard to find the energy. Our PE class is doing a line dancing unit; when we have gym on Mondays and Wednesdays we dance along with the video for about 20 minutes. This week we learned the Zydeco Bounce. It's good for an extra 100 calories or so. According to all the charts and graphs, I should be under what the scale tells me. And it's not happening. More water? Less sodium? More exercise? I don't know.