Saturday, January 12, 2013
It feels great knowing that I lost 34 lbs last year!! I still have 29 lbs to go to get to my goal of 130, but it will happen this year. I'm hoping within 6 months, but I've got to start working out consistently. It has been a real struggle to get my arse out of bed in the morning, before the kids get up, so I can get a workout in for the day. I have plenty of time to do it when I'm up at 4a. It's all mental, and I should be in control of my mind.
Enter intermittent fasting. I have been fasting for between 16-18 hours a day for the past week and 1/2. I have a window of time where I eat that is usually around 8 hours long, or less. I really enjoy this way of eating!! It feels totally right for me. I have never enjoyed snacking on little things throughout the day, and having 3 small meals. I'm the kind of person who enjoys having a few large meals.
It works for me. It works for other people. It doesn't necessarily work for everyone. I have realized that I am ok without breakfast in the morning, and even without lunch if I know I will get to eat larger meals when my "window" opens later in the day. It has helped me be at peace with feeling a little bit hungry. As a person who leans more to the side of eating binges, fasting has shown me how to control my impulse to eat whenever and for whatever reason. Do I feel a bit hungry? Yes. Have I died from it? No. It has taught me that I really do control my actions, and I really am in control of when and what I eat. It has taught me that it's ok to feel a little hungry. It doesn't mean that I HAVE to eat right NOW!
We live in a society where everyone wants what they want, when they want it. Which is always NOW. We have forgotten how to wait for anything. We are surrounded by food 24/7. If you want a pizza at 2a, I'm sure you'll find one. If you want to shop at 2a, there are stores that are open around the clock, and heck even if you can't find one, you can shop online and pay extra money to have something delivered to your house TOMORROW. And most of the time, the purchases are being made with credit cards and not with the money we already have... because we want it NOW! We don't want to wait until we've saved up money; that would take way too long. We want it now, and no one is going to tell us we can't have it.
I am learning to wait for food. I am learning to be more responsible with how much food I am putting into my body. I am learning that I control my mind, it doesn't control me. I am hoping to see what I have learned about my mind and my relationship with food trickle over to other areas of my life. I'm looking for balance in my life, like most of us, and fasting seems to be a great way for me to begin finding it. :)