Saturday Morning Meltdown
Saturday, January 12, 2013
Two weeks of intense workouts, tracking and eating within my calorie range has resulted in a 1 lb weight gain. I growled at the stupid scale and thought maybe it's muscle. So I tried on my favorite skinny jeans that have been a little tight for last few months but I could button them. Well, I COULD (past tense) button them. I can no longer do that. I broke down and cried.
As a feeling of helplessness overwhelmed me, I tried to put my finger on what went wrong. I've done everything right and by my calculations I should be down 2 lbs not up 1 lb. I can't imagine that my calorie calculations have been that off and I can't imagine that my sweat sessions have been ineffective. Frankly this is bull!!! So now I'm angry and angry is better than crying my eyes out. When something fails, you've got to try something else. Also, if I've learned one thing during my lifelong weight battle, it's that weight loss requires a huge amount of patience. Plus I'm as stubborn as a mule. I refuse to give up and let this beat me.
I admit I still feel like curling up in a ball and crying myself to sleep. I'm very frustrated and I have the weekend ahead of me full of dietary booby traps at every turn. A few blogs ago I wrote about being tired of trying to be thin. I guess I really was tired and I just let myself go. I know how I got here and I know what I have to do to get back to where I feel good in my skin.
Have a good weekend all!!