500 little words
Saturday, January 12, 2013
I have often wondered if you could express this journey in five hundred words. I know for each person how that got here is going to vary. I thought I would put mine down. Give it a real hard look.
I used to be the other end of the spectrum when it comes to this sight. I at one time weighed a whole eighty-nine pounds. I controlled every morsel of food or lack of it. I went days without eating. That was a very unhealthy time in my life. Things were so beyond my control that my weight was the only thing I could have total power over.
I received some intensive help for that. The issues where dealt with and slowly I gained weight coming in around 96 pounds. Then I got pregnant with my first child. She was unplanned and I was a whole eighteen years old. She came along and I gained right around 50 lbs. I looked good and healthy at that point. I however forgot that I could no longer eat for two and continued down that path. Two years later I had my second child and broke the 200 pound barrier. I just kept gaining and never even thought of getting control.
My thirties rolled around and my body decided to start sending my some warning signs. I stand a mere five foot two and all the weight I was carrying was just too much. Two hundred and eighty three was my all time high (or low). I had hit the wall and my body was screaming for relief. I joined spark many years ago and got motivated. I lost fifty pounds. My body was happy. Hip pain gone, knees no longer so stressed, back thankful too.
We moved late summer of 2011 and I just fell away from myself. I gave in to all those bad eating habits and gained a portion of what I had lost back. I would pop in and out of here trying to find that thing again only to come up lacking. I know it was not this site. This site is amazing and I have seen so many success stories. It was me. Things in my life had gotten chaotic. I dont handle it well emotionally needless to say.
I am back again. I am making very small steps this time around. I dont know if my journey will be steady. I do know that I need to make this be it rocky or smooth. It is something I know I will be so happy that I did it. I realize it wont be easy and changes will have to happen. I can do this!!!
However you got here I do wish you the desire and strength to continue. Perhaps today you take a hard look at how you got here. Dont give up and if you slide back always keep coming back. I know I will.
Push forward my friends and we will most certainly be victorious.