Friday, January 11, 2013
I am a stay at home mom with two young boys. I am currently trying to lose about 30 lbs. I eat when I am hungry, out of boredom, to finish my children's meals (I feel guilty about throwing away food), when I am stressed, and because it is there. And when I start eating I have a hard time stopping.
Today was my first day of using the provided meal plans. I was really nervous that I was not going to be full after eating breakfast and that I would sneak snacks before lunch. A couple hours after I ate breakfast I had a horrible feeling that I was going to starve to death. I wanted to open up the cupboards and start shoving food into my mouth as fast as I could. Instead I drank a cup of water and tried to keep myself busy. Lucky for me, I received a phone call that I needed to pick my son up early from preschool. I ended up not having to pick him up but decided to spend the next hour and a half reading a book in the preschool parking lot, completely avoiding the opportunity to snack.
As the day went on my urges to mindlessly eat between meals and snacks has gotten easier. I hope that I can keep up the momentum for tomorrow. One of the most important revelations that I learned today is that there is no need for me to panic about starving to death, that is not going to happen in a course of two hours!!