Friday, January 11, 2013
I hate to say this, but I'm starting the new year heavier than I've been in 3 years. I feel like I should feel depressed or sad about it, but I don't. I haven't gained a lot of weight, but it's a lot for me. I've also let my fitness level slide, and slide and slide. This has been going on since August. I've got plenty of reasons and excuses for the slide, but the fact is I was just lazy.
I'm not upset about this, though, because I know it's only temporary, and I know what I need to do turn this around. I've also learned an awful lot about myself and my body over the last 3 years. I've learned what I'm willing to do, and what I'm not. I've learned where I want to be, and where I don't. There have been times I've pushed myself really hard to achieve a goal, and burned myself out. And times I just haven't pushed myself at all, because I didn't want to. I need to find a happy medium.
So this year is going to be about finding my balance - the right combination that will work for me long term. I'm going to be starting out slow. I'm still fighting the desire to hibernate during these dark cold days of winter. But I know from experience that this will diminish as the days get longer. I'm starting to get excited again, so let the journey begin!