Rambling thoughts on my weight loss journey
Friday, January 11, 2013
My body is so weird. I am not sure if it's because i had my five children in 6 years or because when they were young i often only ate one or two meals a day or what the deal is. I think i have one of the slowest metabolisms around. I eat very healthy and have for years. We milked our own cow, made our own cheeses, raised our own organic beef, chickens, and eggs. I've always had a large veggie garden and love to can and freeze the produce for the winter. My weight has always fluctuated. When i was younger, i would lose the weight and get pregnant again :) When my brood was grade school age, I really didn't have a weight problem because i was chasing them around!! In my 30's, the pounds kind of crept up on me until i was about 40# overweight. I got sick of it and with minimal effort (mostly diet changes) the weight came off so easily :p From that point on i had to pay attention to what i ate. I've never believed in depriving myself, but i learned to savor a couple spoon fulls of ice cream instead of having a bowl. If I want cheesecake, then i will make it but i plan a light supper with a lot of veggies to go with it. My neighbors love me, because if i want to make brownies i do...i just keep a few for us and share the rest with them! It has worked really well until i crossed into my 40's. The first few years of my 40's were not a problem at all. I worked about a block from a great little gym in the small town i lived in. I worked out everyday M-F and it never even seemed like work. Then, my ex husband abandoned our family, leaving me with tons of debt and i was forced to move to Omaha. I joined a gym, but it was big and impersonal and intimidating. I was working 65 hours a week and frankly didn't really feel like going to the gym. I was serving tables at 2 restaurants, so honestly, i was burning tons of calories and my weight actually went down. Then i met my BF and we had so much fun cooking together :) Lobster bisque, homemade alfredo sauce, butter and cream and cheese. Yeah. It was a diet disaster! I got away with it for several months when i would only see him on the weekends and then be 'back to normal' during the work week. When i moved in with him in Des Moines, 40# decided to join me in a very fast hurry. So fast, it blew my mind. I had NO idea a person could gain that much, that fast!! I lost about 10 on my own. Joined Sparkpeople and lost another 18 so far. The remaining pounds seem like they have a mind of their own! No matter what i do...heavy cardio, moderate cardio, weights, walking...they just do not want to budge. I feel like i am, literally, fighting for every pound i lose. It is so weird. After the holidays I decided to hit the cardio hard and eat at the top of my range. I actually gained a few pounds. I stopped that and started doing the fitness videos hereon Sparkpeople, and i am starting to lose again. Makes no sense at all.
Enough of that.
I am heading out to visit my daughter and her family for the next 8 days. My daughter is 3 days overdue, so i may actually get to be there for the birth of my newest little grandson! She has a 2 yr old daughter and a 1 year old son that i will be taking care of so she can recover. I don't think exercise will be a problem :)
Thank for reading my ramblings and know that i am cheering you on, too!!