Ha! I win this time, time zones! (long boring existential crisis ramble)
Friday, January 11, 2013
I still have time to blog! Hahaha! It is now Saturday here, but because we don't have Daylight Savings Time or whatever, SparkPeople thinks it is still Friday, so I can still write a blog and get points for Friday.
Earlier today, time zones won, when I tried to log on to my webinar an hour early. Well, I guess they didn't win, because I didn't miss anything. But I felt like a doofus. The webinar was not particularly exciting, either.
I am doing webinars and going to weekend professional events and editing magazines and reviewing journal articles because I WANT A NEW JOB. But I just talked to DH and realized that I am going to have to stay here for at least one more year, which means if I don't get the one I had the informal meeting about this week, I am going to have to stay in the hell I have been in for the last 5 years for another year. On the plus side, I will have the most awesome C.V. by the time I escape.
You see, I kind of want to go back to the US. DS really wants to go back for high school (in 1.5 years!). But DH is just now getting started with a new business venture here that could be very lucrative (or could be a complete failure, but he's not putting money in, only time, so it's not that dangerous). He followed me over here and hasn't really had a real job in the whole time we've been here, which has been difficult for him in many ways. So I can't uproot him now. And what would we do with DS? If he goes with me, he would be starting in a new school (and who knows what kind of school he might end up in wherever we might end up), in a new town/state/country/continent, while I simultaneously start a new job, new home, new car, new everything - all alone. I know single parents do this kind of thing all the time, but I don't want to be a single parent if I don't have to be.
If DS stayed here with DH, we would have to hire a nanny, housekeeper, and driver. And DH would have the new job/single parent thing to contend with, albeit in a familiar place.
Oh, and either way - one of us would be ALONE. And we would spend a lot of money and time on flights halfway around the world.
Oh, and there's this, which no one ever thinks about... A former colleague took a job in the South Pacific. His wife and kids stayed here because the kids had one more year in school. When this school year finishes, the kids will go off to college, and the wife will leave her position and join him. He comes home for the holidays. First, it takes him something like 4 days to get here because of cyclones and delayed flights. He lands, within 24 hours is in intensive care with pumonary thrombosis. He spends Christmas and New Year in the hospital. JUST went home this week. And now? He can't fly back to Fiji for at least 3 months. So what happens to his new job?
No one thinks about things like that. But they happen.
Anyway, I don't know. I probably won't get any job offers again. I didn't get any last year. I can stick it out for one more year. After that, I just don't know. I know this: If I don't have something good by the time DS finishes high school, I'm going to join the Peace Corps or go to China or Kazakhstan or maybe Argentina. I've never been to South America. Or Australia, either, but they don't need me - they already have enough English teachers. ;)
Okay, I may have passed midnight after all this rambling. I need to sleep. Early morning tomorrow.