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Friday, January 11, 2013

Its week one, day 2 of my plan to re-discover myself -- I stumbled across this site (a happy chance) and am hoping it will help me stay motivated and be in touch with others with similar goals.
About me right now -- I'm mid-forties and appalled to realize I've gained a good 30 pounds in the last year. I could make a lot of excuses -- job loss, home loss, relocation and major family changes along with the onset of menopause-- but the truth is that I just quit caring about myself. I was still in denial about my weight gain, even after stepping on the scales, until I saw myself in a photo and hardly recognized myself...thats when it hit me that I not only don't feel right, I look as miserable as I feel.
I have the knowledge and the tools -- lost 40 pounds and five sizes with weight watchers (and walking) five years ago and kept it off for three years. I remember how amazing it felt to find I needed a smaller size in clothing and to feel comfortable wearing shorts, and finding my energy levels going up as my weight went down.
I guess I had to "hit the wall" and get to this point before I got serious about making changes -- changes for my own good -- and to make my health and happiness a priority in my life again. I want to feel good in my own skin, know I can put on anything in my closet and have it fit, and be confident and sassy and as strong and healthy as I can be.
I know it won't be easy -- I have a lot of bad habits to break and a lot of good ones to re-learn -- but I know its possible and in my own best interest to stick with it to get where I want to be. I haven't been very loving toward myself in quite awhile and its hard to be loving toward anyone else when you don't like yourself -- and this is one area of my life that is within my control to change for the better.
So here I am, ready to make the committment to myself and make me a priority in my life again...and I'm so glad to have found this group to be there with me along the way.
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  • SMITTY1959
    I love your attitude and your take on the problems we all face within ourselves and why we sabotage ourselves. I am somewhat new to this program. I too have lost weight at WW, did not maintain that weight, I did go back but just wasn't into it. So my new years resolution was to cancel WW. Don't think many people do that, but then again I am not most people. I am looking forward to reading more of your writings. Thank you,
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