I have been struggling since the beginning of the month. It is hard to get back on track after the holidays. I tracked everything I ate and exercised every day, but her I am on 1/11 and I still find myself struggling to totally get back on track completely.

I feel like I need to bunker down for the Winter, fatten up for the long haul to keep warm and eat my comfort foods. But the thing is, my comfort foods aren't comforting me and deep down I don't want to fatten up like I have every winter. Spring and Summer will be here in no time at all and I want to be healthier and feel like I look better when it is time to wear shorts and t-shirts/tank tops again.

So why am I struggling? I think two many sweets and more fatty foods over the holidays helped to derail my plan. I think the couple pounds I have gained and have had struggled to take back off again have thrown me off my game. I think when I mess up and eat something I know I shouldn't, I use it as an excuse to eat something else I know I shouldn't.

Don't get me wrong, I haven't derailed completely, but just enough that I have lost my momentum and am stalled. Kind of like a car with bad fuel. I know the right thing to do, but I don't quite understand why I mess up every couple of days when I really want to succeed. I wasn't even having trouble sticking to my plan until the last couple days of last year, so why is it so hard for me to get back in the swing of things? I'm still exercising every day, but my food choices are inconsistent day to day and it seems difficult for me stay on plan more than 2-3 days.

Maybe I need to spend a little time reviewing my goals, saying some positive affirmations and refocusing on that I still need to continue to put myself first this time. I know as my knee has steadily improved post operation, my day to day responsibilities are greatly increased and I have fallen back into old habits. Perhaps it is time to make some new habits to replace those old ones so that I can get back on track. I know I don't want to look back in a month or two and still feel this way so I need to do this now.