on the upswing
Friday, January 11, 2013
well this is the first blog I ever wrote.
I am so excited to have found spark people. One thing that has always helped me in my 30+ years trying to get to a healthy weight and maintain it is reading success stories. Reading the blogs of people who have gone through the same challenges and succeeded is what I need to be successful. While it is obvious to the world that I am extremely obese, I have only spoken honestly about it with a few close friends. the forums and teams are giving me an opportunity to be honest and understood without feeling ashamed.
My two sons - 18 and 21 have lived with an overweight mother all their life. I am tired of being embarrassed at school functions knowing I was the fattest mom there. And I know they get embarrassed too. After seeing my family picture at Xmas from my niece's wedding I knew this couldn't wait anymore. It looked like I had a card table stuck under the back of my dress..
In September I was fired from my job as a clinical social worker of 26 years. Was it fair- no, but it doesn't matter. I was forced to confront that despite my skills what interviewers see is an extremely overweight woman. I know I need to get healthier to make a physical impression that matches how I present verbally. After three months, I believe this time was given to me to make the changes I need to do to become healthy.