Friday, January 11, 2013
Oh my goodness! Well, it has been a looonnnggg time since I have been on Sparkpeople which is a shame. 2012 ended up going by and once again I did not take the time to truly focus on myself and get to a healthy weight.
Funny, I am a caretaker of children and give them plenty of time and attention. I give my family an abundance of attention, care and love. Yet, I neglected myself.... again.
Ok, so now I must start fresh with a new mindset and MAKE THIS HAPPEN!
I must lose weight and right now I am at my heaviest ever. It frustrates me that I have allowed this to happen. I am better and smarter than this. So why have I allowed it? Not sure. Too stressed out over life circumstances, lack of focus, motivation not existent, etc... etc... etc....
Well, I don't know what it is, but I genuinely feel a new sense of determination this time around. I actually began my weight loss journey last Wednesday, January 2nd. I am sure many people did the same thing. However, this is not some "resolution" for me, it is a lifestyle change goal. I want this to be ongoing, not just something to try and accomplish at the beginning of the New Year.
Anyway, I have been writing everything down that I eat & drink. I have been measuring my foods. I have been drinking tons of water and cut out all the sugary drinks. I have been eating lots of fruits & veggies, plus I am now taking a multi-vitamin.
For the past 10 days I have done this faithfully. This morning was my weigh in day and so I step on the scales, look down and realize that I lost..... NOTHING. What?!?!?!?! I am beyond disappointed in this and genuinely do not understand what is going on with me. I didn't cheat. As a matter of fact, I have made lots of healthy swaps in a great effort to get rid of the nasty, processed, sugary, unhealthy foods. I honestly do not understand.
I am not giving up though. Actually, I think this disappointment and anger is becoming more of a motivator right now. Next week I will be incorporating some exercise. I am really excited about that too because I am hoping that will yield some positive results.
Hopefully, keeping my diet straight along with exercising will be the key. If I don't see a weight loss next week, well, I guess I will just keep on trying. I do NOT want to give up. That would be the easy thing to do right now or even next week if I don't see a weight loss. I am not doing that.
Like I said before, I am determined. I want to be healthier for myself, for my family and for our future. I want to feel good about myself when I look in the mirror or even when I am just out and about. I want to be a good role model for my children too. I have an almost 20 year old daughter and an 8 year old son. Both of them deserve my best and I plan to give it to them. :)
I think I will wrap this blog entry up now. Please send me many positive well wishes. Goodness knows I will appreciate them greatly!