Friday, January 11, 2013
I've been thinking a lot lately about transitions. I have a son with special needs and one of his challenges is transition. So transition has been a topic of great significance in my life for quite a long time now. But I've been thinking specifically about my own transitions-both past and present.
Of course there are the big ones, both happy and sad. We all have those in our lives. I've been more focused on the smaller transitions.
I'm interested in my transition from stuffing my face with whatever tastes good to my current mindset of trying to be healthier. One of my big motivators has been being diagnosed this past year with clinical depression. Getting to the point where I knew I needed help was a huge process. Once and made the decision, talked to a psychiatrist and started to receive treatment I then felt a little better. Then I decided to take better care of myself in all aspects of my life. I know feel much more like myself and my good days far out number the bad ones.
Another thing that prompted this shift is that I have chronic insomnia. I have difficulty falling asleep and if I wake up in the middle of the night (which I always do) I cannot get my mind to disengage so I can fall back to sleep. Often I am awake at 1:30 or 2 am. Not where I want to be. I've tried everything I can think of to help with this problem, I admit that I have a very high amount of stress in my life (reference aforementioned son) that we are working everyday to reduce. There is no medical diagnosis. I've had sleep studies done, take melatonin, etc. Nothing worked. I've meet taking prescription sleep aids for years. I don't want to be on them any more. One of my goals for this year is to be able to sleep an entire night (7-8 hrs) consistently. Tall order. I hope that by adopting a healthy lifestyle in all aspects of my life that this may become a reality.
The transition has been slow. I'm still in the midst of it, but I realize that it is a process. A process that will make me a better person to others around me and, more importantly, to myself.
Have a great day!