Friday, January 11, 2013
Ever since the incident that cause my torn meniscus, I have been spinning out of control. The way that I was controlling my weight was with lots of intense exercice. I had found bootcamp and kettlebell classes that were working very well at reshaping my body and releasing some fat. Now I can only do stationary bike and swim some laps. I miss walking and I really miss bootcamp. Altough walking is very good for people with osteoarthritis but it doesn't help with the torn meniscus.
I have been eating my emotions ( what is new about that) and I am now at 257. Exactly where I was 6 years ago after losing my job having gone trough a very difficult very lengthy take over. I am being awaken every night by the pain in my knee and the lack of a complete night of sleep is a big stress for me. I am trying to do naps and basically reshape my sleeping habits but it is not an easy thing to do. My only hope for a break in the pain is an orthetic that cost 1400$ and is not covered by the insurance of my hubby. Plus it has to be change every year. So we are now saving money to buy one.
I am trying to make it very simple this time : less calories more activity. I have subscribe to the gym and they have a contest that ressemble biggest loser. Not in the approach but in the process ( 12 person chosen, 1 winner. weekly weight in, monthly coach meeting, suggested diet and personal exercice plan. Winner gets a trip for 2 to New York and lots and lots of gift). They will start the interview with all the people that apply in mid january and then if I am chosen it starts in mid march and it last 3 months). But I don't want to wait to see if I am chosen to start losing weight, because if I am not I am pretty sure that I would be devastated and I could use that as as excuse to just stop everything. I am talking about this contest because if it is the motivation I need I would really appreciate people on SP to send positive energy my way. If it is not what is best for me then I am asking SP people to send positive energy my way to find motivation for perseverance. I am asking a lot I know.
Well goodbye for now. I am babysitting 2 of my grandchildren this week-end so I know I won't be able to go to the gym but it was important to me to make an entry in my blog to remind me that this is the only way I can go. Lose weight and see my health improve or give it all up and not be there to enjoy all the beautiful things in my life.