Thursday, January 10, 2013
Today has been a very confusing day emotionally
and eating wise. I'm actually not sure how to feel about
The day started out well. I had my smoothie, although,
I did it a little differently. I won't question it, I was
just kind of on auto-pilate.
It got odd on my way to work. Emotionally, I wanted to binge.
I wanted nothing more than to get as much junk food as possible
and just down it all.
So, I went to the store and started looking at junk food.
A lot of my normal binge foods didn't look good. I'd pick them
up and then put them back.
I settled on 3 little Lunchable things, 4 string cheese's,
and a 12 count thing of the 2 Bite cupcakes. On the way out, I did go to StarBucks, which is odd, since I am not a fan of SB's. I prefer a little local coffee shop closer to work.
So, I drank most of the coffee (A spiced Vanilla latte, 20 oz.)
On my lunch, when it was only me working, I ended up getting out
my food. I eat the 4 string cheeses, without much effort.
But when I got to the 3 lunchables, I could only eat half of each
of them (which is why it shows that way on my tracking.) When
I only finished half of the first one, part of me wanted nothing
more than to keep eating, so I tossed it, and started the 2nd.
The same thing happened with the 3rd.
Then it was the cupcakes turn. I have eaten the whole thing of
12 in the past. It's been a couple of months, but I have done it
more than once. So, I tried. I could only eat 4 of the 12!!!
So, in a way, I am SO GLAD that the binge wasn't worse. I know
it could have been. I am sad that EMOTIONALLY I still go to that
place, however, my body is apparently on my side now. It said no.
Despite everything going through my mind, my body said no more.
I am going to take this as a good sign! And somehow, I am still
under my calories for the day. Wow....
Plus, today, I placed an order for the "Crunch: Fat Burn Pilates with
Ellen Barrett! It was only $3.12! I can't wait to get it.