Forgot this feeling
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Well I actually forgot about two feeligs. I forgot about how weird it feels to get used to normal meal sizes after months of over eating. It's kind of like hunger pains...but not quite. Stomach just has to shrink back down.
Also forgot how satisfying it is to watch the numbers on the scale go down, especially in the beginning. I just hope and pray I can make this change permanent this time. Last time went more than a year. Never in a million years did I think I would fall that hard off the wagon. I think back and still can't really track how it all happened. How it fell apart. I have my guesses but all that does is conjure up bad memories. I want this future to be bright and happy and full of healthier life.
And now...anther pound lighter, I go to bed. Completely exhausted.