Thursday, January 10, 2013
I do realize it is the beginning of the year but my decision to join this site was not a 'resolution'. I have been wanting to make a change but it always seemed like I was too tired or got too busy doing this or that. What I was doing was hitting snooze on my life. Last year at this time I was 30lbs lighter than I am now. When I pick up a 30lb weight it saddens me to think I am carrying all this excess...no wonderI am tired. I joined this community yesterday afternoon and it has already had a positive effect on me. I got off of work around 6pm and went grocery shopping for my new meal plan. I got home and what I would do normally is plop on the couch not even changing out of my work clothes turn on the t.v. and sit there for hours. Last night i prepped my meals, put my goals on the fridge, actually changed and read a book. Ok yes it wasn't a HUGE change but what I am realizing its the small changes we make that will make the most impact over time. Today I have followed my meal plan to a tee and I already have more energy than I normally do...i am not craving chocolate or pretzels I am just sipping on my water and enjoying this new found alertness. It has occured to me that this energy burst could be my excitement in the program and not really because of the change in the diet seeing as I only have had two meals so far but either way I feel happier already...feel more positive about me. If you were to see what I would normally eat you would think i never ate. I would skip meals all the time then binge and I know thats bad for your body I know so much about diet and exercise its insane BUT i stopped applying it. I started making excuses making it seem that i "Deserved" to sit motionless on the couch for hours because I was tired. I work a desk job and while not physically demanding it does take a toll on the mind. Although noone may read this blog or any future ones I am happy I can talk about this and get it off my chest....make myself accountable for my decisions...my excuses that I use to block any progression. This is a chance at a new beginning..at a new me that I will not let slip through my fingers again.