Thursday, January 10, 2013
I am really struggling with the eating. Over the break, I didn't plan what I ate or measure or record. I have been keeping up with exercising. Thank God! It's just that I have not been mindful with my eating. I try and then fail but I am not giving up. The other day I felt anxious and caught myself mindlessly eating. I have a problem with emotional eating. I know not to do it yet I find myself doing it anyway.
I talked with the coach at Curves today. She wants me to go back to a 1200 calorie diet for three days next week and to plan what I will eat and stick to it religiously. She said she is going to join me in doing this. Today when I stepped on the scale my weight was up and I gained inches. I am disappointed but hopeful.
I REALLY need prayer to OVERCOME this weakness and stay on track. It seemed easier when I gave up smoking 17 years ago and that is because God delivered me. I don't really miss smoking. I no longer crave it. I know I can't give up food because I need food. I have to apply what I have learned about managing it and NOT let it manage me!! I think the same underlying thing(s) that moved me to smoke, moves me to eat at times and I need help in fully surrendering this to God! One problem I have is that I am not fully aware of what these THINGS are. I know a piece of it but not all of it. I need God's help in discerning what the things are and facing them with Him. I think I have been afraid to face these things and have somehow put up a block of what these things are. In order to be set free, I have to confront these "THINGS" with God's help. I NEED to change and I have been lacking the motivation. I KNOW He will deliver me in this area. I trust Him! Thanks for listening!!