Ok, I'm having a slight anxiety attack. But first, I will preface this by saying boys, you may find this TMI. Nothing graphic, but girly. Continue at your own risk.
I've always had an irregular period. It's crazy, I can go months skipping, and then have a regular one, or a few regular ones, or an extra long/heavy one, or whatever. It's all over the place, and never the same day. Anyway, since being on depo for a couple of years, I've skipped almost every one of my periods. I have to admit, it was kinda nice! I got used to it, and when I stopped depo, and got my period this week, I'm all out of whack. Here's why.
I have a history of iron deficient anemia. It got pretty bad at one point, so I could only go to school and put my part time job on hold (this was back in high school). I'm starting to get that similar weak, tired, jelly-ish feeling. So I will be adding some iron-dense foods to my diet and talk to my doctor next week about how my labs look (nice coincidence!) from yesterday, and if I can/should take an iron supplement on top of the iron I get in my multivitamin.
I'm extra crazy. Like, crazy on top of my normal crazy. (Hehe!) So moody, hubby finally had to ask what was up, we were fighting so much and I was so cranky.
I'm stuck on this January challenge, to the point where I"m obsessed with it. Which is good in the fact that I'm determined to stick to the workout schedule. Bad in the fact that I feel like I'm going to fail if I skip my workout tonight. Even though I walked last night, on my off night. Hubby went with me, but the cramps got so bad I was almost paralyzed and we had to go home early. Hubby (sweetheart that he is, girls, get ready to say 'aww!') made an emergency run for me for some midol while I sat at home with a heating pad. My cramps have never been that bad!
But back to my point, and my anxiety attack. Can I skip tonight's workout? I already did my 10 minute video, and walked (albeit slowly and short) on my day off yesterday. I feel like I'm failing the challenge if I don't workout tonight. But I also know, if I push my body, I will end up paralyzed by pain again like last night.
So. Here's the deal I'm making with myself. Because I know this will not be the only time something comes up, and schedules have to be rearranged. I'll take tonight off from the 30 minute cardio. BUT! I will make up for it over the next few days. Either by doing 40 or 50 minute workouts, whatever works out until my time is caught up. Kind of like making time up at work! In the end, I'll still have logged my minutes, just rearranged a bit.
Some days, it's best to listen to our bodies. And when our bodies are screaming no, no no, we need to listen and determine if we truly need a day off. And if so, take one. Anxiety free.