Thursday, January 10, 2013
So I am on day 4 of my trying once again to get rid of this weight. Now I am older so it is so much harder!!! 40 is like a huge brick wall! Once I hit that wall my body just would not give any more and I suppose I just let it take over and here I am again. What can I do?? I could continue to be pissed off and not do anything (as usual) o i ca suck it up and try to get myself back on track and get my diet back in order. It is not easy, of course, what is?? I have been eating okay for the last 4 days and have been to the gym on Monday and Wednesday but not worked myself too hard which is my other problem. I go whole hog at the gym then i wipe myself out and hurt myself and then I push myself again even though I hurt and make it worse. I think I am finally learning from my mistakes!!!! Holly crap... really???? The eating part is hard because I am ALWAYS hungry but i am snacking on celery here and grapes there and a orange over the other place and I think i might have something good going on??? Of course the weekend is coming up so I am not in the same enviroment... big test ahead! I may not fail but I know I will not get 100 - but I can try and that is all I can do. And if I do fail slightly, I will try like hell to not beat myself up (I bruse easy).