Thursday, January 10, 2013
well i missed blogging yesterday .... i had such a horrible day. I'm not sleeping well and my oldest boy has been stressing me out to the max. His mood swings are giving me whiplash!! 2 years ago he was diagnosed with ADHD but as I do more research i'm beginning to think he is more bipolar. the symptoms are the same but he goes from happy, to sad, to angry, to i don't care to ..... the emotions get mixed up there is no order.... it's frustrating and stressful. I got divorced because his dad's mental issues and now here I am still living in this nightmare. Yesterday I ate every thing I could think of and didn't exercise. I didn't want to exercise ... had zero desire to do so ... and yet I feel like crap and no i need to exercise to lose the weight. I was 16 points over my target yesterday .... what the heck is wrong with me. I need to put a lock on my frige and cupboards and throw away the key until it's time to feed my kids for the day.
I'm trying very hard to stay postive and stay on the healthy train ... i got a bit derailed yesterday i know ... and the day before too .... so i need to figure out a way to flip the switch and get me back on the right track maybe i'm just trying to do too much all at once and i'm getting overwhelmed. I don't know ... but i have to figure something out.
for the rest of the week i'm going to concentrate on staying within my points range ... eat the foods i have set out for myself and go from there. no more breads. and for goodness sake stay away from the icecream!!!
ok feel better now that i have that off my chest .... baby steps that's what i'm doing now ... it's too much pressure on myself ... one thing at a time.
thanks for listening!!