Thursday, January 10, 2013
Last night I responded to an e-mail from the SparkPeople press office by filling out one of the "official" success story surveys. Don't know who nudged them my way, but I pulled up my courage and filled it out.
As occasionally happens when I toot my own horn, I started tossing and turning over it, and by 2:50, I was awake, and did not fall back asleep despite closing my eyes and making my best attempt to let it go.
What goes through the brain? Oh, the usual performance anxiety crap: "What if they publish this and then my program falls apart and I regain (yes I still fear the great regain)? What if I fail in my marathon training? What if...?" And seriously, "why am I doing this? Is it REALLY to help / encourage others or is it to puff myself up in importance? Because Barb, you're not any better than anyone else! Don't be a braggart."
What to do when these kinds of thoughts hit? What I chose to do was get up, slip on the running shorts and hit the treadmill.
I put my five miles plus in early, then stretched and showered before breakfast. I'm calmer now... got my anxieties back in their "normal" proportion, my "ego" back in its seatbelt... and I'm good for the day.
The run itself felt good. Much better than the Tuesday after supper slogging. To be clear, I did not try to work out immediately after my meal... it was a full hour later. But apparently either what I ate (not huge, fish & potato) wasn't sitting right even after an hour, or... who knows? In any case, Tuesday, slogging, this morning, on auto pilot and feeling good. I'm sure folks can relate... some days it just feels better than others!
And the steel cut oats? Are tasting extra good this morning!
Life is good. Spark on!