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Tackle Tough Thoughts Thursday

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Today will be an emotional day for me, there is no denying it. Anyday that a Foster parent has to go to court for their foster children is nerve racking. It is even worse when that foster parent has their own grandchildren and the person you are facing in court is your own child.

No matter how long I have been doing this (going on two years now) court never gets any easier for me. I am not a person who likes confrontation - it tears me up inside. Seeing my daughter in the shape she is in is heartbreaking. The only thing in all this that keeps me going is my grandsons who everyday are getting bigger and stronger and healthier in my care. Here they will stay for the rest of their lives.

I am determined to not let my emotions guide my eating today. I have planned out every meal, every bite. I will work my frustrations out this afternoon after court on the treadmill. I am learning a better way to deal with my feelings and it feels good.

Have a Sparktastic Day friends, and please keep me and the boys in your prayers.
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    You are a special grandmother.

    I thought when my children became adults it would be easier but we still feel their pain but can't do anything about it. At least you can help your grandchild.

    Bless your heart. I know today was tough.
    1839 days ago
    I have tears in my eyes and goosebumps at the thought of what you are going through.
    I fostered my daughter for nearly 4 yrs before we adopted her and only had to go to court a few times and that was traumatic enough- and she was not related to us in any way.
    1839 days ago
    Best wishes for the right outcome! Those grandsons are blessed to have you. I was a foster care worker back in the 1970's. Court always stressed me out and I can imagine if it is your own situation and family it would be even more stressful. Please take care and be gentle with yourself. Very smart to plan your meals and eating and prepare. Those grandkids are so lucky to have a healthy caregiver!! -Marsha
    1839 days ago
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