Thursday, January 10, 2013
Today will be an emotional day for me, there is no denying it. Anyday that a Foster parent has to go to court for their foster children is nerve racking. It is even worse when that foster parent has their own grandchildren and the person you are facing in court is your own child.
No matter how long I have been doing this (going on two years now) court never gets any easier for me. I am not a person who likes confrontation - it tears me up inside. Seeing my daughter in the shape she is in is heartbreaking. The only thing in all this that keeps me going is my grandsons who everyday are getting bigger and stronger and healthier in my care. Here they will stay for the rest of their lives.
I am determined to not let my emotions guide my eating today. I have planned out every meal, every bite. I will work my frustrations out this afternoon after court on the treadmill. I am learning a better way to deal with my feelings and it feels good.
Have a Sparktastic Day friends, and please keep me and the boys in your prayers.