This is a very quick blog to get these thoughts out of my head! which are circling around and if anyone can answer then I will get you a prize (afraid would only be my gratitude)

Why am I not motivated? I have put some weight back on, clothes are tight, posture poor, energy ok, breathless a tad when going up multiple flights of stairs at work, hate taking stairs now for some odd reason! Mindless eating. Also stomach pains I can't seem to eat much at times just feel full - but I still try and eat!

Everyone knows (unless you have been asleep for the past few weeks) that it is a new year and I was away at new year (america)which was good and gave me time to think I came back quite refreshed and trying to address eating and it was improving (yup the old new year resolution- but odd it wasn't specifically to loose weight as I though better not say that as I would fail :( ) but still not feeling motivated especially to go to the gym ( which I am ashamed to admit that it is a 3 mins walk for me!) What is wrong with me I have been slimmer before and loved the feeling of being able to fit clothes and proud of my appearance - i just not wanting to look after myself (btw I understand this is a sign of depression but i am not depressed). Frustrating part is I have a big year this year I have graduation and then hopefully paris (again i love the place!) and venice (never been but if anyone has any tips please let me know!)

Anyway going to stop this "quick" blog as I just needed to get that out.

Good luck to everyone with their journey
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