Wednesday, January 09, 2013
I have toned things down considerably and I may go even further, at leaset as far as work is concerned. I have been irritated and perseverating all day over something and I am not yet able to let it go.
On Sunday, when my husband and I were at school, we ran into the principal. We discussed this coming week and she told us that she hadn't gotten around to dealing with a sub for me and it wasn't in her plans this week. So you can imagine my surprise when I got a phone call this morning from the sub who started working for me YESTERDAY. (I had left a note with instructions for any sub to call me as soon as they read the note because I cannot leave connected daily plans for a sub given the work that I do.) I also have my sub folder here at home because as a rule, they NEVER get a sub for me.
Imagine my surprise a bit further when it was one of the two people that I told the principal in a lengthy face to face conference that I NEVER wanted to sub for me. I have a lot of reasons about this that includes previous work I did with her and more recently, when she subbed for another teacher and took the kids out to play, not letting them come to their lessons with me. Hmm, do you think she values my work much?
I was absolutely astounded. I wrote a very ugly email as therapy that I didn't send. Then, I wrote an honest email and asked how this could have happened and expressed my irritation at all of this. The woman couldn't keep track of the three strategies that I told her that all of my students need to work on and confused strategies with rote skills that aren't an appropriate match for what I did tell her. Furthermore, I hadn't received all of the updated reading scores until Monday and I haven't reorganized my second semester selection and intake. This sub told me that a teacher wanted her to take a couple of new students and I told her absolutely not to do that. She also will not have updated materials to match the students' most recent growth because the materials I use all belong to ME. (I don't get materials and supplies from the district, I have to buy my own.)
When the principal responded to me, she told me that she "needed to get somebody into that position right away" and that this awful woman (my words) had done good work for her before (Hmm, she didn't check with teachers on that!) She told me not to worry about things and that she would make sure there were no coloring sheets going on.
I am flabbergasted. This is the kind of crap (oops) that gives educators a bad name and creates long term problems. I sent my decent email to all of the downtown administrators as well as the principal. I guess I will shut the door and my availability to them on this. How much damage can they do in a month? I am so sorry for my kids and my volunteers--but this is far out of my hands.
I need to settle down, but like I said I have been upset the entire day over this. There are only two possible explanations for this--the principal either is dumb or intentionally made a decision against what I had requested. I don't think either is appropriate for someone in her role.
On a different note, I received two or three very positive emails about the workshops I led on Monday. Somebody knows that I am competent, capable, and caring about my students and what I do.
I'll try to calm down and let this go...but it isn't easy. I feel pretty violated.