Wednesday, January 09, 2013
Today the SparkCoach activity was so blog about the excueses that we have to not working out and how we plan to overcome them. This is something that I was actually thinking about today. I caught myself up on the biggest loser and I was really inspired that they have three young teens trying to fight childhood obesiety. Although I wasn't severly overweight when I was younger and even now I'm not really overweight, but I'm not quite in the healthy range and I have some pounds to lose! If these young kids can get on tv and lose weight in front of the whole country so can I!
My first excuse is that I don't have enough time. Yes I'm very busy, I am taking a full load of college classes I work 17 hours on top of that at school. I am also president of my soroity a job that I just started and am still figuring out. I live in my own house with my boyfriend and have laundry and dishes and cleaning to do. I also have a less than a year old puppy that is extremely active who needs a lot of attention. On top of that I would like to hang out with friends and get all my studying done and have a date night with the BF every now and then. Even with all that I have time. I don't always use it in the best way that I could. I can admit to myself that I'm adicted to TV. I watch it every chance I get which I know isn't healthy. So how am I going to use my time to work out and make healthy food? Well this is something that I'm going to try, I'm not going to watch TV until I have worked out that day, and during the commercials I will get 500 steps for everyone. This is going to be very hard for me especially because all of my favorite shows are starting but I know this is what I need to do!
The next excuse that I use is I'm too tired. Alough this goes with having so much to do, if I have all the energy to get my school work done I have the energy to workout. I have to start thinking of my workout as another thing that I must do, not just an option that I have when I feel like it. I think this is completely reasonable and something that I am going to focus on doing!
The next excuse is the biggest one for me, its that I don't feel like I am worth it. When I was young I was convinced that my parents got divorced because of me and although I now know that it wasn't me at all, it really affected me when I was growing up. Even to this day I don't really feel like I'm worth the time and effort to get healthy. I'm so scared of the hard work and also what comes after. I'm scared of having my life back, I'm scared of not being able to hid behind my weight. I know that I am one of the luckiest people in the world, I have a wonderful BF who is always there for me and makes me happy. I have a mom who would do anything to make me happy. I don't struggle for much, even as a sophomore in college I make a good amount of money at my job. I have a lot of people in my life who truly care about me, but I'm not able to appreciate it. I want so much to have really good friends, and I have so many people in my life who would be there for me but I'm so scared that they won't like me and that I will fail that I can't let them get close to me. I am worth it and I need to realize that if they are my friends that they will love me no matter what. This shouldn't be an excuse for not working out becuase all I have to lose from working out is the weight and I truly want to lose the weight. I'm going to wake up every morning and tell myself how wonderful I am and I'm going to tell myself that I am worth it. I think I am also going to make a board about all the wonderful things in my life and all of the wonderful things that I want in my life so that when I don't feel worth I have something to show me that I am worth it.
Today is a day about stopping all the excuses and starting fresh and keeping with my plan and exercising more and getting out there and believing in myself. Thank you to all of my sparkfriends who have been there for me through this journey it has meant a lot to me! I hope everyone else realizes that they are important and that they matter to this world!