I guess this is more of a journal entry than a blog...need to put my thoughts down...

"Aha" I am doing yoga because it is what I LIKE and feels sooo good. I have not quite convinced myself that it is "real" exercise but I am coming around somewhat since I asked my instructor to give me a little bit more. But the part of the aha is that today I turned into McDonalds for an afternoon mocha latte because I was out and about and felt "deserving" after all this is just for me. But I stopped to think a moment and realized I was not even hungry just thirsty sooo I looped into Sonic for a diet drink and thought nah! How about unsweetened tea. I was racing home to make my yoga class returning from an hour drive home from a dental appt so that was the AHA! That I could treat myself to something special that was not food because I do deserve that more than extra cals.

The PMS monster is lurking so he messes with my head on days like today and tries to convince me that I am just crazy and think too much. But it's how I feel today and how I deal with it. That's no lie.

I am fighting to keep my head above water post holiday with extra pounds and extra guilt and back to work and back to stress and fatigue...like most other people. But I am here on Spark and doing it to my best ability TODAY. Stayed in cal range and did yoga.

It's raining cats and dogs so why not....