Too tired to be sad.
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
For the first time in a long time, I took a sleep aid (excedrine PM) to go to sleep last night. I woke up with some RENEWED energy and my head felt CLEAR again. I must not have had a good night's sleep in awhile. Its not something I want to do all the time but I think I needed it.
I got home and was suprised to find out I will be having 7 kids over friday for Cameron's birthday instead of the 2-3 originally planned. Cameron often goes behind my back and has discussions with his father. In fact, the last time he was grounded was because of it. However, I can't 100% fault Cameron, because Randy continually allows it as well. Its exhausting. I know they are both probably sick of hearing me get mad about it, just as much as I am sick of telling them that they shouldn't be doing it.
I told Randy that I thought it was disrespectful of Cameron, and his way to get around what I say. I also said that it shows me that he (randy) is inconsiderate of my feelings considering how often I tell them how it hurts my feelings that they have these conversations and don't include me, when I am always the one watching the kids and feeding them.
I probably shouldn't be writing about him since he joined spark lol but he doesn't read my blogs any ways.
I cried...I am sick of always feeling blindsided and not having my feelings considered.
Then I decided to get over it and get on the treadmill and do some strength training. Had a good work out but didn't do any studying. Good things tomorrow is my (semi) day off.
Any ways, now I am too tired to care that they don't care about my feelings...(sounds sad doesn't it?) But I have also decided to leave Randy with the 7 kids (plus Cameron) friday and go out with friends. Guess he can figure out how to feed them all and deal with it.