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2012 has been a year from he double hockey sticks


Wednesday, January 09, 2013

It has been a rough year for me personally and I have all but disappeared from most of my online sites and I apologize to you all. I felt that I was in no condition to help anyone when I couldn't help myself. It was a year for heartbreak It took me a very long time to believe in myself again and although I am back to being a functioning Human Being, I am not completely over it, when are you ever? But I do have to say I haven't cried in a very long time so that is a good sign. My Faith in God helps me to get through the rough patches and I am thankful that I have great friends and family, without them I don't know what I would do. I have always said to all of you here that life is a journey and I truly believe that, everything happens for a reason. I had to go through this as a sort of right of passage so to speak, It made me realize How strong of a Woman I really am and what a wonderful loving caring son I have, he was there for me the entire time. He became the parent when I wasn't able to and I am so thankful that God blessed me with such a great kid. I realized who my friends are, I mean my true blue, stand by your side, have your back kinda friends and I cant thank them enough for letting me cry in their arms as they dried the tears from my eyes. I also realized that I have an amazing life and I wouldn't trade for the world.
I am back and ready to kick it up another notch. It's time to end the pity party and get back to living life the way it should be. Throw caution to the wind and see what it hits.

This Journey of mine has just started a new chapter and I am writing it every single day.
Its a new year and a new life and and I'll be damned if I'm gonna sit back and watch it go by without me!!!

Happy Journey's everyone.

There is no obstacle I can't jump over as long as I have my Faith in God!!!
I thank Him for the challenges he puts forth that make me a stronger woman!!
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SAMSON94 1/11/2013 8:40AM

    Thank you all so much for your inspirational words. It means a lot!!
I felt the need to put myself out there for strictly selfless purpose. I have so many triumphs in my life but I wanted everyone to see that along with those triumphs there are tribulations that we all must go through as part of our Journey to self discovery. For those who are struggling with weight loss, health or any other issue, remember we all are but the best part about SparkPeople is that we all do it together, support each other, encourage each other and best of all we GET each other. Some have been there and succeeded, some have been there and fallen off, but we are strong and with all the support here we bounce back with more resolve than before.
I am not a card carrying Bible Thumper by no means but in this world of cynical people The one constant that has kept me above water is my Faith in God and it is nice to know that I am not alone in my beliefs.
Thank you all so very much.
Make a difference in someones life and it will make an impact in yours.
xoxo
Ellenmary



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JERSEYGRL4EVR 1/10/2013 4:19PM

    May you be truly blessed in 2013!


I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. Phil 4:13



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MUGGLE_MOM 1/9/2013 8:09PM

    I am so sorry to hear that you have had such a tough time. I am so very thankful that your son has been such a wonderful young man and you've discovered that you have some friends who are standing by you in your time of need. I have no doubt that 2013 will be a top notch year for you as your write the next chapter of your amazing life.

Ellenmary, you were my very first SparkFriend and I think of you often, especially whenever I hit that mall. I wonder how you are doing and if you're still going strong. Your picture is AMAZING and I am so thrilled that you were able to keep hold of that part of your life during your down times.

Wishing you all the best for 2013. Welcome back. I missed you emoticon

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NEEDBU66 1/9/2013 8:03PM

    May God bless and keep you, May His face shine upon you and give you peace.

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