Ok figured it was time to catch up. This was my first week back on track. Ive tried SEVERAL times before to get back on, I would do great during the day then falter at night time. I did well all week back on track, minus the weekend. I tried , I tracked, so I guess im ok with it. I think I expected so much from myself being back, that I didn't stop to think one meal at a time, one day at time, then see how u do. I wanted all in, and it was all or nothing attitude so because I thought that going into the weekend, I failed MYSELF.
But there are things ive noticed just in this first week alone. I was noticing, how I felt, what I could or couldn't do etc.
I tried the night before I started WW again, the new Zumba Core my mom bought me..... When I say OUT OF SHAPE, I literally mean out of shape... I was dizzy and couldn't breathe, I couldn't get through the workout....
Im asking myself, seriously Jill..... How did u let it get this bad.... , ive exercised every day since then..... and I reassessed tonight during and after my Zumba workout... I can actually BREATHE again! I can get through a song without feeling like im going to die.
To get through day one, day two, day three, day four etc..... is like a miracle , because before when I tried to get back on the wagon, I failed. So ive had some victories this week, that I AM proud of. Even tracking this weekend, when it wasn't such great food- I NEVER used to do that, but I KNEW I needed to.
I know things will gradually change for the good again. But this time, im not gonna just focus on the NUMBER , yes it will be GREAT to lose weight. But its all about how I feel. I want to be healthy, not only for myself but for my little girl. I know I WILL get there, but I cant expect to get there over night. I gained it over night lol, but it certainly wont come off over night like I gained it. And I cant be mad at any one but myself. I got to where I am now, and I will PROUD when I get to where I wanna be and keep it off.