Wednesday, January 09, 2013
I don't think I have much to say today.. or the last few days for that matter but wanted to post here. I think it's important that I post something on a regular basis so I can keep honest with myself. When I accomplish this weight loss, I think it will be nice to look back to see where I've been and the changes that have come.
I can't wait. i was thinking about the difference I'd feel this summer once I get some of this off. Summer is the worst season for me. I hate being hot and I will not be caught dead in a bathing suit outside of my backyard. I have missed out on so much being fat and I don't want to miss out on another season of fun with my son. Poor kid. I think weight loss will make everything more fun,
I remember looking at some pics of people that have actually made it and I can't remember every looking or feeling skinny. I can't wait to feel every part of my body...lol.. without much effort. I look forward to having a neck instead of a double chin. I look forward to comfortable clothes that actually look nice instead of hang and drape and cover. I look forward to enjoying a life of activity and healthy eating.
ah.. motivation is not always my friend though. I need to do this. it's not a matter of wanting to anymore.. it's a matter of needing to. I don't want to struggle with diabetes. My dad is diabetic and I've been lucky so far. Even with my elevated weight my blood pressure has not been high and i've not struggled with other weight related health issues, Praise God! Perhaps I am a skinny girl trapped i a fat girls body!!