Yep, it's been over a year since I last updated. I haven't been keeping up with Sparkpeople for awhile, though I have been finding my way toward a healthier me. I'm under 240 pounds, having lost over 30 from my heaviest. I'd gotten stalled recently with my goals because of a badly sprained ankle, but as it's healing, I'm headed right back to feeling better on about me.
So, what's happened over the last year? Well, there have been a few crises that have changed the way I've looked at the world. One involved the cleanliness of my apartment, another dealt with my depression. Both came to a head last April and it sent me into a tail spin. I realized that I was floundering and that I needed to take control. It's taken me awhile, but I'm finally getting back to a point where I feel like I am in control again.
I'd gotten myself on a regular cleaning schedule - a different room every day. I was making sure that each room was tidied every night before bed, that the laundry was being done weekly and the dishes were at least put into the dishwasher nightly. I fell behind a little when I fell down the stairs and sprained my ankle - I couldn't do half of what I'd been doing any longer. So right now I'm back on top of everything again. Monday and today were the first two days I was able to get things done (yesterday was cut out because of being on the run out of the house all day), and I've managed to get two rooms cleaned beyond my satisfaction. I'm not to the point I was before the fall - at that point, I was able to tackle the long standing issues like the clutter on bookshelves and the like. But in a few weeks, I'm expecting to be back there again.
This holidays season, I found something that really surprised me - I wasn't craving the sweets. At least, not to the extent that I've craved them in the past. I used to have all of my chocolate finished within a couple days of Christmas. Instead, here I am a few weeks out and I still have some left. Instead, I've been craving clementines. Definitely the healthier way to go.
I hadn't found time before to do structured exercise, but I was finding that I was busier in general. A lot less time lying around, messing around on my Kindle and a lot more time getting things cleaned up or being out of the house getting things done. That, honestly, is where most of my weight loss and better body/self worth came from. Ever since my fall, I'd allowed myself to fall back into the habit of getting nothing done and it affected not only my body but my mind. And now, I'm ready to put that behind me.
I've finally started talk therapy for my depression. I just saw my new therapist for the first time yesterday and I think she's going to work out well. She had a lot of great suggestions for me, things to help me get feeling better about myself. One of the things I'm going to look into is seeing if there are any openings at the Y for me to do some part time work. I'd be able to put Pete into the daycare there and I'd have a chance to work out there as well. I haven't looked into it yet, but soon.... And anything that brings extra money into the house is a plus!
Starting today, I'm going to be using exercise videos through my cable provider. AT&T has an exercise app with various videos that they've recently launched. I'm not able to do most of the exercise videos I currently have (too much impact on my ankle still) but I'm hoping these will do well for me. I've also got exercises to do every day to strengthen my ankle. Between them, I should be feeling pretty good.
I'm also hoping to get back into the community here. I missed the people in my Comic Book group, and I've really missed getting together with the people from the Nashville group. I always forget, thanks to my depression, just how important community is for me. That support is invaluable. so that's what I'm going to work on. Because it's not just the physical me that needs bolstering. The emotional me can use it as well.
2013 will be the year of me!