I don't know what my deal is
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
I thought that getting back into routine would help. Maybe it will, but it hasn't been immediate. I know I need to be patient and give myself time to get back into the groove, but it can be frustrating and demotivating to get through that transition time. Yesterday was the first day that the kids were back. Oh boy, were they hyper! It was a long day. I did fine while I was at school. At school I am in a controlled environment. I can only eat at my designated time: Lunch. No snacking. I snack way too much at home and apparently I did so a lot on the holidays because I was starving by the time school let out. I made it through Walmart, to daycare, and then home before I cracked. I got my kids some chips to snack on and it was all over! I ate out of control. Looking back, i should have quickly got them their chips and then put them away and gotten out some carrots or something. I didn't though. We don't even normally have chips, but they are leftover from a Christmas party. Grr....I have told myself that I need to get all of the junk food out of the house so I don't have temptation. There are so many things that I shouldn't have in the house, but I do because they are leftover from holiday events. This weekend we are celebrating my daughter's birthday, so after that it is gone. If it isn't used, it is going to be trashed!
I ate good at dinner last night, but after the chip fiasco, that didn't make me feel much better. So far today has been good calorie wise, but it is my daughter's actual birthday today and my mother-in-law is coming over to cook so I am wondering how this evening will affect my calories. My daughter is turning 5 so of course she is expecting a cake. That is another thing that is hard...we didn't have just one Christmas celebration...we had 5! We aren't just having one birthday celebration...there are 2! One the day of and one on the weekend for family. Birthdays might be just one day...but they are celebrated over and over! It's a killer! Today I told myself that I just need to get past her birthday celebrations and then I can move on! I should be able to handle and control my eating around special events, but at this stage, it is just too much of a challenge. I know that one day I will be better prepared to handle them.
On the plus side, I have been really working to get in my water. That is better than nothing, right?!
As difficult as it is to get through holiday and celebratory eating, I am so proud of my girl. I can't believe that she is already 5! Where does the time go!? She is so grown up...kindergarten next year...I have a hard time accepting it. The calories are nothing really. In the whole scheme of things, what really matters is that I model healthy choices for my kids and they grow up to become healthy and happy adults.