Well, it's official. Here's my first gain.
Technically, I'm up a pound since last Wednesday. I did a mini weigh-in for the BLC21 and recorded my weight as 214.5 but my last weigh-in blog has me at 215.
I know there's bound to be more gains along my journey but it just sucks that I could have easily prevented this one.
My next weigh-in now is one week from today and I need to get back on track.
Ok. Stop. Just Stop!
Enough B.S. Krisitna - time to get honest in this blog post and tell the 2.5 people who will read this what you're really thinking about doing instead of getting back on track...
Ok, honestly? My challenge for the BLC21 officially starts next week. My official starting weight for the challenge will be recorded next week.
I was seriously considering not putting in any effort again this week just so that my first week with BLC21 would give really good results because my starting weight would be a little high.
That's horrible and self-sabotaging, right?
It runs along the same thought patterns I had when I would get ready to start other healthy habit kicks. I would go on a farewell tour of food and would eat whatever I wanted and not exercise at all so that my starting weight was whatever it wanted to be and the weigh-in after the first week was really good.
I REFUSE to do it this time. No, no, no!
Sorry, but I had to tell on myself just now because if I didn't, I just knew I would follow through with a mini farewell tour before the start of BLC21.
I'm calling myself out right now. If I don't post a loss next Wednesday - it means I'm back to my old ways of starting healthy habit kicks by eating unhealthy amounts of food.
I know for sure two Wednesdays from now there will be a loss. I will have started the BLC21 and the accountability factor of my weight loss or gain having an effect on my team's goals will definitely kick my butt into gear.
But next week's weigh in doesn't really count, it'll just act as my starting weight for the challenge. If I don't lose any weight next week, the only person I'm letting down is me. And that should bother me, right? I should care about whether I let myself down or not.
What's really sad is that I'm part of another challenge right now (The Jolly Holiday Challenge) but I'm not really a good participant. I record my weigh-ins but I haven't really earned them many points for their mini-challenges. For one thing because the last 2 or 3 weeks - I've been off track.
I know deep down I was thinking that once I started with the BLC21 suddenly everything would change and it would allow me to be a good participant in both challenges.
That's not the right thing to do though. I need to commit this week not because I joined either challenge. I need to commit this week for me.
It's ultimately not about challenges or being accountable to teammates. Those are just tools to help with my journey. I need to commit to learning healthy habits for my own benefit.
I'm in this thing for me and me alone. If I happen to also help out my team's effort - then that's fine too.
Whew! It felt really good to write all that out.