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215.5 (Up 0.5 pounds since last weigh in)

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

Well, it's official. Here's my first gain.

Technically, I'm up a pound since last Wednesday. I did a mini weigh-in for the BLC21 and recorded my weight as 214.5 but my last weigh-in blog has me at 215.

I know there's bound to be more gains along my journey but it just sucks that I could have easily prevented this one.

My next weigh-in now is one week from today and I need to get back on track.

Ok. Stop. Just Stop!

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Enough B.S. Krisitna - time to get honest in this blog post and tell the 2.5 people who will read this what you're really thinking about doing instead of getting back on track...

Ok, honestly? My challenge for the BLC21 officially starts next week. My official starting weight for the challenge will be recorded next week.

I was seriously considering not putting in any effort again this week just so that my first week with BLC21 would give really good results because my starting weight would be a little high.

That's horrible and self-sabotaging, right?

It runs along the same thought patterns I had when I would get ready to start other healthy habit kicks. I would go on a farewell tour of food and would eat whatever I wanted and not exercise at all so that my starting weight was whatever it wanted to be and the weigh-in after the first week was really good.

I REFUSE to do it this time. No, no, no!

Sorry, but I had to tell on myself just now because if I didn't, I just knew I would follow through with a mini farewell tour before the start of BLC21.

I'm calling myself out right now. If I don't post a loss next Wednesday - it means I'm back to my old ways of starting healthy habit kicks by eating unhealthy amounts of food.

I know for sure two Wednesdays from now there will be a loss. I will have started the BLC21 and the accountability factor of my weight loss or gain having an effect on my team's goals will definitely kick my butt into gear.

But next week's weigh in doesn't really count, it'll just act as my starting weight for the challenge. If I don't lose any weight next week, the only person I'm letting down is me. And that should bother me, right? I should care about whether I let myself down or not.

What's really sad is that I'm part of another challenge right now (The Jolly Holiday Challenge) but I'm not really a good participant. I record my weigh-ins but I haven't really earned them many points for their mini-challenges. For one thing because the last 2 or 3 weeks - I've been off track.

I know deep down I was thinking that once I started with the BLC21 suddenly everything would change and it would allow me to be a good participant in both challenges.

That's not the right thing to do though. I need to commit this week not because I joined either challenge. I need to commit this week for me.

It's ultimately not about challenges or being accountable to teammates. Those are just tools to help with my journey. I need to commit to learning healthy habits for my own benefit.

I'm in this thing for me and me alone. If I happen to also help out my team's effort - then that's fine too.

Whew! It felt really good to write all that out.
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    You've got the bottom line right, you're doing this for yourself. The BLC stuff? Yeah, nice to have more people cheering you on, but, if you put extra effort in because of trying to fulfill someone else's goals, what happens when that challenge ends? If you're not doing it for yourself, you'll fall back.

    I will have no problem cheering others on in the context of the BLC, and yeah, I'll probably give it a bit of extra effort to try and meet some of the conditions set forth in the challenges, but ultimately, we're here for wanting to better ourselves.

    Glad I'm not the only one going in with this sort of attitude, because I'm a bit uncertain how that will work within the team concept. We might be trading tales over the next few weeks.
    1800 days ago
    The first time you gain really really sucks. I remember letting it ruin my entire week and being mopey all week until my next weigh-in when I could feel better about myself again. The thing is though, it's going to happen and all you can do is move forward and make better options. Throw in an extra workout if it makes you feel a little better and move on!

    Also, don't play around with your weight loss and gain for random challenges. It's a lifestyle change and everyday you should be stepping in the right direction. It's not worth it. You're only in those challenges to motivate you to be your "best self." You're making a mockery out of your own honest progress and efforts and diminishing hard work you've already put in. Be fair to yourself!
    1800 days ago
  • FLGIRL1234
    That's fantastic! Many people never own up to the truth of things. Good for you! I have a feeling you're going to ROCK BLC 21!

    1800 days ago
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