Sunday I succeeded in the getting the books counted for inventory at church,
So happy to have accomplished that. The bookstore was actually pretty busy Sunday.
Sunday was also Epiphany, when the wise men or 3 kings visited the infant Jesus; everyone who had their Christmas decors still up, took them down this weekend in my neighborhood. In our modern day, Epiphany marks the end of the Christmas season and the end of the 12 Days of Christmas.
Discovered today that KLOVE still has their Christmas station playing on their website, so I've been listening to it. Didn't listen to much Christmas music during December, & am a little sad about Christmas being over. It's nice now to listen to Christmas music for Christmas' sake, not for the commercialization. The music without the lights and without the buying and commercialization and hoopla, is nice. Spiritually encouraging. I'm surprised they still have the site up. Probably due to Greek Orthodox calendars being one week off? I have absolutely no idea. Maybe it's just for people who really love Christmas.
Mon did job hunting and laundry. Tues worked; I'm working Tues - Fri this week again at the piddly pay job. Just when I think it's a schedule I can "count on", they change it, so I don't want to psychologically start counting on it. No expectations . . . The good manager is in another state opening a new store, helping hire staff for it; so it's worse than usual this week at work.
The 15th is next Tuesday and I gave myself a deadline to have my 2013 SMART Goals done by then, at least a penciled-in version. So will work on it 15 mins a day, and do the majority of it this weekend and Monday.
I'm forcing myself to take my supplements. 2 or 3 never worked for me; very carefully over much time, I have found what works for me, but it's alot, and I hate swallowing pills. A friend reminded me on the phone today, how much they also help my mood. She can tell by my voice on the phone, if I've taken them. Yeah, for that too, i.e. to keep depression at bay, I need to keep taking them. Job hunting and exercise are much harder when you're depressed. I remember how hard December was. Based on all-over stiffness and other physical symptoms they banished Friday, plus the mood correction, I know I really need them. Last night's shift was hard, physically, but not like last week.
I'm so glad it's a new year! December and 2012, were NOT good. So glad to put those memories behind me, and move on.
Join Me for a God Watch?
During my 3.5 year's unemployment, I have kept the faith and refused to give up; I refuse to quit. I know God has plans to prosper me and not to harm me, plans to give me hope and a future, as I continue to seek Him with all my heart (Jeremiah 29:11-13).
Everyone has "Wilderness experiences", like the children of Israel in the Bible in the book of Exodus. They had to live in, and through, a desert. Utter wilderness. And every once in awhile, there come periods of refreshment in the Wilderness. Streams in the desert. God gave me one of those silver linings, or rainbows in the storm, right at the end of this year.
Have you ever read something written by someone completely different from you, that is a huge blessing? In completely different words than you would have used, they describe the same faith you have in a completely different way.
The Bible has several word pictures and metaphors for hearing and receiving right words that really bless you; one word picture in Proverbs talks about right words being like apples in a basket; like apples of gold in a silver basket, or silver setting, or silver tray. What a pretty word picture! I've actually seen in Christian bookstores, framed wall art they sell that is yes - gold apples in a silver basket. A word picture, to remind us of the power of right words.
Proverbs 25:11 says:
New International Version (©1984)
A word aptly spoken is like apples of gold in settings of silver.
New Living Translation (©2007)
Timely advice is lovely, like golden apples in a silver basket.
English Standard Version (©2001)
A word fitly spoken is like apples of gold in a setting of silver.
New American Standard Bible (©1995)
Like apples of gold in settings of silver Is a word spoken in right circumstances.
Holman Christian Standard Bible (©2009)
A word spoken at the right time is like gold apples on a silver tray.
So God gave me a New Year's Gift of right words that really blessed me. He used a Christian mommy blogger, whom I have almost nothing in common with other than the Lord, to bless me so much. It was just the shot in the arm I needed most, at exactly the time I needed it most. The power of right words; words that are so different from mine when I express my faith, that were so true, and right-on, and rang a bell of faith and truth; words rightly spoken, like golden apples in a silver basket.
Guess what she was talking about? The one year anniversary of her husband signing his new job contract.
And before he signed that contract, her husband's extended unemployment, and their family's Wilderness experience while they go through it, which she describes as being on a God Watch.
So in 2013, I'm on a God Watch.
I love the way she writes this, and really encourage you to read it here:
But I know some of you won't click on the link, even though you'll be missing out on blessings; so here is an excerpt from the above link:
Extending our “God Watch”
I watch. I wait. I wonder.
Some call it courage. Some call it foolish.
I call it faith.
Six months ago, I wrote a blog post called, “Join me on our God Watch.”
It invited blogging friends to join our family as we entered another “God Watch” period in our lives – my husband’s pending unemployment. Years ago, I coined that phrase for our children as a game, of sorts. It was an intentional way of watching and waiting to see how the Lord would unexpectedly amaze us during a particularly difficult circumstance.
Now, it’s a family mantra. Our God Watch is a reminder to gaze at His goodness. To rest in His reassurances. But more importantly, it’s a whisper of willingness to choose joy in the midst of doubt.
I chuckle as I re-read that post. Uncommitted, I typed it in less than ten minutes. Heartfelt was the God Watch invitation, but at the end of the post, I retorted, “remind me of this in six months if we’re still unemployed, deal?” I never assumed I would need to revisit that tongue and cheek comment.
Yet here I am, 6 months into our God Watch.
Satan would love nothing more than to take me down the winding road of regret and woo me into a long whining discussion. You know the one–the back and forth conversation that takes place in your mind. Ideas primed as dagger-like darts. Feelings that mull around in misery, yet no audible words ever leave the mouth. Oh yes, those have been some of my more lively discussions.
But today, I have a choice. His faithfulness reminds me that I have no other choice than to punctuate my life with praise.
Praise for His security during times of uncertainty.
Praise for the little things, since they are reminders of the big things.
Ah yes…finding joy in things I had entirely missed before deepens my faith walk. It’s a reminder of how this extended “God Watch” season can grow us deeper, make us more intentional and reveal to us the little blessings that are so often overlooked.
So here’s to month seven. I invite you to join our family on this “God Watch” as we watch fervently, wait expectantly and wonder with anticipation; for all that the Lord has in store during this adventure.
Do you care to join me with on your own God Watch journey? I’d love to have you.
So, that's my new encouragement, my new way of framing my circumstances. 2013 is The Year Of The God Watch. The year to watch God deliver me from the Egyptians, from the Wilderness of unemployment, and from anything else I need delivered from.
2013, the Year Of The God Watch, is the year to keep choosing to "gaze at His goodness; to rest in His reassurances, willingness to choose joy in the midst of doubt. an intentional way of watching and waiting to see how the Lord would unexpectedly amaze us during a particularly difficult circumstance."
Ohhhhhhhhh, yesssss!, I am, most DEFINITELY, on a God Watch! And I will continue to "punctuate my life with praise", yes even during the Wilderness, because He is unchanging; El Shaddai, More Than Enough.