Ok, technically it's not "mid-week" but it is mid-work week so that counts. Plus I need a little support to help me break a little bad habit!!

So far things are going well. I tracked EVERYTHING I ate on Monday and Tuesday, logged over 100 minutes of exercise, burned over 500 calories and generally feel good about the transition back into the healthy lifestyle. I do get extremely anxious when I think about the long-term (as in the 12 week challenge, it seems SO far away and almost impossible to complete) so I am continuing to enforce my ONE DAY AT A TIME attitude. I even put a note on my desk that simply says "ODAAT" so when I start to feel overwhelmed I am reminded to take a breather and just worry about today.

Push-up and sit-up challenge is also going well the first two days. It definitely has worked as motivation to do the extra exercises because I want to fill something out on that chart EVERY SINGLE DAY! I am already sore from the push-ups but I'm realizing it only takes a couple minutes to knock out 50 push-ups (girl push-ups, come on I'm not superwoman!) So I think it will definitely benefit me. And of course the sit-ups will benefit me. My midsection is the area that needs the most help. I can't wait to have a flat stomach and smokin' guns!

So confession time: I am obsessed with weighing myself. In general I don't think I'm an obessive person. But if I'm being honest with myself there are some things that I latch onto and then become obsessive about them and weighing myself is one of them.

So on Monday I weighed myself and tracked because it was the first day of the competition. By the end of the day, after I worked out, I actually weighed myself again before I got a shower. I KNOW!! Stupid...yesterday I had to really talk myself out of it and was successful. Same thing this morning. I moved the scale out of the bathroom and into a bedroom closet so it's not AS convenient to get to on a daily basis.

Logically, I KNOW that I shouldn't be weighing myself after 2 days because I KNOW that I am expecting to see results. But that is silly. Even if I did get on the scale and saw a change in number, at this point it is probably just a fluctuation. However, it will affect me (good or bad) and that is NOT good. But I feel the compulsive need to check my weight and get that gratification for the work and effort I've put in the last two days.

I am starting to realize that this was one of my major downfalls in the competition last year. I was weighing myself every day and dare I say it, sometimes more than once a day. I wanted that instant gratification of knowing that my not eating something I wanted or my busting my butt at the gym was automatically accounted for. I got so frustrated last year that I quit the competition because I saw changes in my body but no change on the scale. I vowed not to weigh myself for a month. When I did, I had dropped 12lbs!!! So I know that it makes a difference but somewhere deep inside I have the nagging feeling to check the scale, everyday, sometimes multiple times a day.

I am not going to throw my scale away because I do want to check it on a weekly basis (Monday's) and hold myself accountable for the changes I see but I have to really force myself to get past this NEED to weigh constantly and receive the validation from the scale on a daily basis....ugh.

So if it's any other day than Monday, feel free to ask me if I've weighed myself today and I will answer honestly. Maybe that will help this obsession take a backseat!