Wednesday, January 09, 2013
Talk about a loss of control! I know why. Well mostly. For some reason, despite the fact that I mentally reminded myself to go exercise, it didn't happen. Not the cycle, not the strength exercises. I just didn't.
I did a few errands. Made a bad lunch choice. Put the supper in the oven. Roast chicken, husbands choice as his BD was mon (i had to work) so I told him I'd cook anything he wanted. The supper was not overall a bad choice but I could have eaten less of the stuffing or forgone it all together.
Part of the "emotional" reasons were about a half hour before the bird was due out of the oven he called and said he'd be home late. There was a water main break at work. Ok.
He got home about a half hour late, ate and told me he was going back. Ok.
I have to admit a bit of resentment here. He works with his son. It's his son's business. He gets paid but not all that well. This extra time......unpaid. I understand it. I would have done the same. Didn't change how I felt. I work 3-11 4 eves a week. That gives us 3 eves a week together. That and weekends. Well, I work every other weekend so on those days we have the mornings. Consequently, if something gets in the way of what time we do have, I tend to not like it too much. We've had our ups and downs, especially the past decade or so. A couple of times we have come close to calling it quits. There are still issues. I know that getting a day job might help but despite dozens of interviews no offers have come through. Depressing and disappointing. I have wondered if ageism or wt prejudice have come into play with those decisions because I HAVE the qualifications.
Oh well, enough gripeing. Today will be better. I will MAKE it better. Better choices. Those are up to me.