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Being Big Really Sucks

Wednesday, January 09, 2013

I hate my size. I can't bend over hardly or lift my legs to cross them. I huff and puff going up and down stairs. I can't get on the floor to play with my daughter and her video games that she wants me to play with her SO much. I can't walk around the block evein without just about fainting and thats only ONE mile!

But I CAN do something about it. Like I'm doing now. Doing my chair a cise dvd. Drinking a ton of water to ward off hunger. Get more sleep so I feel better in my head thanks to God and my medication. I can set little goals and reach them like setting a goal of losing ten pounds by Valentine's day God willing.

Yeah being big sucks. But at least my fiance thinks I"m beautiful. He told me the other day "No you are NOT fat you are BEAUTIFUL." How can I respond to that? He hates it that I hate myself and my body. I just want some self esteem back. I want my hair to grow back where its fallen out due to my medication and stress.

I just want to be the old ME again. Happy healthy and confident. I miss her. WW.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
LYNNA1968 1/9/2013 10:25PM

    you are working on change so you are ahead of the game! Give that man a big squeeze lol

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BROADBRUSH 1/9/2013 11:15AM

    it is good that you feel all the discomfort - and that you have decided you have had enough. enlist the help of everyone around you - fiance, kids, people you work and play with, etc.
one step at a time - don't give up on walking - just do what you can - and in a short time you will be able to do more. write down your progress on the calendar and track it - you will be amazed. same for foods - journal daily -
be kind to yourself too - have things you can snack on - fruit, veggies etc -
water is important - but learn to recognize true hunger - you should eat something every 3 hours to keep fueled.
keep in touch - you will do well - BB

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WIDELOADROAD 1/9/2013 9:22AM

    You're fighting the good fight. You can do it!

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SADWHITEWOLF 1/9/2013 8:43AM

    You can do something about! You are strong!

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GARDENCHRIS 1/9/2013 8:30AM

    One day you will be..... keep doing what you are doing BBCAUSE of your daughter

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SNS1968 1/9/2013 8:27AM

    One day at a time.

For me, the aches & pains, the ill-fitting clothes, the getting winded after one flight of stairs, etc. were what pushed me to lose some weight. The appearance thing was secondary, but I'd be lying if I said it wasn't important.

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RIDLEYRIDER 1/9/2013 8:14AM

  We are all beautiful, but we can be beautiful and HEALTHY too! That's what you need to be working for! emoticon

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MSKRIS7 1/9/2013 8:12AM

    You are beautiful!!!

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