Tuesday, January 08, 2013
This morning, I made my typical breakfast smoothie, though,
I added about 6-7 spinach leaves to the mix. A fellow Spark
Friend actually recommended this to me. The result? Awesome!
I couldn't taste the spinach! The only difference I could tell
was that my drink was now green lol. It did, however, keep me
more full for longer!
Today is the last day of me using whole milk though. I still
had some left so I had to finish it, but I did go out
and buy some 1% milk last night. We'll see how this goes
I was really excited about doing my Wii Fit today, but I
was waiting for maintence to come put in our new Carbon Monoxide
alarm, and didn't want to do it until they were done. They didn't
get here to do that until 1:30pm. Once they left, I changed
the batteries in my Wii Board, turned on my system, and got
ready to work out!
That was until I discovered that ALL my remotes were completely dead
LOL. So, I have them on the charger so that I can work out
tomorrow. My back is still pretty sore from doing freight yesterday,
so maybe the day off isn't a bad idea. I will be creating a new profile
on my WII Fit as well. It's a new journey, and a new me, so
Not to provide too much information to anyone, but when I got
out of the shower today, I just stood naked in front of my
mirror. I tried telling myself that I love myself exactly as
I am, unconditionally. I soon found tears rolling down my face
because I couldn't believe it. Especially as I realized that
I couldn't even wrap the towel fully around me. I haven't
been able to for a long time, but for some reason, tonight,
that truly bothers me.
I am just trying to keep in mind that I am working
fiercly towards my goal of a new and healthier me. I need
to respect that it is going to take time. These changes can't
be made overnight--whether it's the changes to my eating, to
my body, to mind, or to my spirit.
For so long, I have hidden behind this large body of mine,
assuming that I was safe from being hurt in any way again.
Because of that belief, I ate and ate and ate. For years, I
have sworn that I had it under control and that I was the
master of this food beast. The reality is, probably a year
or so after I started this "On Purpose Eating", I lost all
control of it. It became MY master.
No more. Just no more. I want my freedom and I will spend
every hour claiming it back. Meal by meal!