So here we are! 2013
New "goals", new teams, bright ideas and clean slates. This is the YEAR!
Oh, I joined two new teams on SP, a new "challenge" in "real" life, and have the knowledge to move me to a new me.
But not one day have I really tried.
Nope. Not one.
Yes, I have lost 3 lbs this week. Dumb luck or stress.
I'm just not feeling it.
Seriously? Did I just say that? I think I may be lying to myself. Here's why:
I felt the "ouch" when I realized my WINTER coat was tight, and made me look thinner.
I felt the embarrassment when I got winded in front of my SIL when I walked up the stairs in the new house.
I felt the shame when I realized that pair of jeans I had been so excited to buy and wear not so long ago, went from fit, to muffin top, to exploded can of biscuits.
But I don't FEEL like working out, make the effort, planning, measuring, counting, tracking. I like to think of these things when I think of making weight loss/ healthy lifestyle work.
I am in a place where I feel like I should go to the Dr. about some minor things, but won't because I don't want her to be disappointed in me. But deep down I know that she wants to help me. She wants me to succeed.
It's really me that is disappointed in me.
So, I don't care.
I have several friends here that didn't "feel" like working out, did anyway-and have succeeded in their goals.
Therefore, I have to say that I don't care if I don't feel like working out. Really, I don't feel like feeling like a loser.
I don't care if I don't feel like tracking, I don't feel like buying a bigger size (my sweatshirt my DH bought me was the right size, but refused to fit--that was embarrassing for both of us)
I don't care if I don't feel like planning, I really don't feel like eating out either.