Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Well. I have a good plan but am not off to a really good start. I just broke up with my boyfriend which I think is best for both of us. It was long distance since I returned to school and I know the long distance part is extremely hard for him. I graduate in May and will then be looking for jobs. I really don't know at this point if I am going back right away. It is for the best. We both want to be happy and want each other to be happy. As time goes on, there are more and more reasons to split than stay as our lives are just moving in different directions. During the Christmas break we were together and felt so close. It was just as good as when we were in our prime but once we went back to our separate lives, things just fell apart. It really does suck. I need to focus on school, focus on health, and focus on finances. I have an excellent plan of attack that requires, energy, focus, discipline, and planning. I just do not have the drive to follow through at this time. I just need to do and not think. If I think about going to the gym, I will think about how I don't want to go to the gym. When I think about making my lunch for the next day, I won't want to do it. Not because I don't like doing those things; it is just because I am not in a good mindset. I just need to stop thinking about it and just do it. Then when I think about it afterward, I might be in a different frame of mind.