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Tuesday, January 08, 2013

Well. Now we've had my Grandma's funeral and I've said goodbye properly and I'm back home in Glasgow, I feel like my new year can begin.

It was a lovely service - simple and dignified just like Grandma : ) I do miss her, but Mum's given me the bookcase that was right next to Grandma's chair and two necklaces, which all make me feel like she's still with me.

Still it was a difficult weekend. In fact it was a difficult couple of weeks between Christmas and the funeral. Grandma was just such a major part of my life, even when I moved up to Scotland, it's so difficult to imagine her not being there any more.

I have to confess I've been using my grief as an excuse. I've eaten a shortbread round, indian takeaway, bisctuis, chips, a whole jar of marshmallows, chocolate, cake, ice cream. You name it, I've probably nommed it.

But I can't go on like this, I know this isn't the way I want to live. Plus it's really quite hard to exercise knowing that I'm only working off those marshmallows and not actually getting anywhere with my weight loss.

So today is my new year new start. No resolutions - they don't last. Just me taking those first steps back in the right direction. I started today with drinking my 8 glasses of water (yes, that has slipped too) and tomorrow I will drink 8 again and aim for 5 lots of freggies. One wee bit at a time.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
PKBOO3 1/9/2013 4:16PM

    Aw. So sorry about your grandma. I know the loss is hard. I know you can get back on track with your eating. Like you said, it's a new year!

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CHANGINGSAM 1/9/2013 4:10PM

    I'm sorry to hear that you lost your Grandmother. It's always tough when you have to deal with that. I truly hope you heart heals quickly. emoticon

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BEANIES_MOM 1/9/2013 4:19AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. You will get your footing again, but slipping at a time like that is completely understandable. emoticon

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MERRY_XMAS 1/9/2013 3:40AM

    I'm so sorry to read about your grandma.
It's more than ok to overeat under these circumstances...
The important thing is that you are back on track.


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LYNNA1968 1/8/2013 10:17PM

    I'm so very sorry for your loss. I'm sure she will be with you always. You have a whole year to work it out. Take care and I'll be thinking of you.

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KALANTHA 1/8/2013 9:27PM

    I'm very sorry for your loss.

Try to go easy on yourself.

You've got the right idea about taking one small step at a time. Each step will bring you closer to your goal and you will eventually get there.

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JULESJET 1/8/2013 8:33PM

    So very sorry to hear about your Grandmother.
And yes! Little by little, we can progress!

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JOESFARMGIRL 1/8/2013 8:22PM

    So sorry to hear about your grandmother. My sincere condolences.

I understand the resolution thing. I'm not making any (although I guess technically that is one). I'm just getting back up on the horse and hope he won't collapse under the strain!

One wee bit at a time. I've worked up to 25 minutes on the bike. A wee 5 minutes at a time.

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DUMBBELLE84 1/8/2013 7:40PM

  So sorry about your Grandma. Once you get back into the swing of things, I hope you'll find your running an acceptable alternative source of comfort. Big hugs.

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    I understand what you are going through. My Grandmother passed away on Christmas Eve, and its been a difficult holiday season for me too. I am getting on track and feeling better every day. So take it one step at a time! You can do this! emoticon

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