Tuesday, January 08, 2013
I am anxious! And irritable.
I think it's the job starting Monday. I should hear Thursday if I've passed the background check and the drug test (neither of which I'm REALLY worried about) and it's bugging me... I'm basically acting as though it's in the bag, going through my wardrobe and getting the insulated lunch thingies together... getting the house ready to have me around a little less to "manage" stuff (not that I execute much, but I delegate!).
It's all happened kinda fast. I wasn't even looking, though I'd been thinking about it for several weeks. I hadn't even updated my resume with the new address yet when my friend let me know they were hiring at her company and she thought I'd be a good fit. I'm nervous about letting her down or making her look bad if for some reason this doesn't work out or isn't a good fit.
The evil committee in my head is starting up some baloney chorus about how I'll get sick again, or I won't manage food and sleep properly and I'll lose all my momentum with the weight loss, I need to switch massage therapists because the current guy's schedule doesn't work with my new one, and the more time I spend "benched" from exercise the more my weight loss seems to sloooooow dooooown, so the committee is having a HEY DAY with that too.