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ANXIOUS!

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

I am anxious! And irritable. emoticon

I think it's the job starting Monday. I should hear Thursday if I've passed the background check and the drug test (neither of which I'm REALLY worried about) and it's bugging me... I'm basically acting as though it's in the bag, going through my wardrobe and getting the insulated lunch thingies together... getting the house ready to have me around a little less to "manage" stuff (not that I execute much, but I delegate!).

It's all happened kinda fast. I wasn't even looking, though I'd been thinking about it for several weeks. I hadn't even updated my resume with the new address yet when my friend let me know they were hiring at her company and she thought I'd be a good fit. I'm nervous about letting her down or making her look bad if for some reason this doesn't work out or isn't a good fit.

The evil committee in my head is starting up some baloney chorus about how I'll get sick again, or I won't manage food and sleep properly and I'll lose all my momentum with the weight loss, I need to switch massage therapists because the current guy's schedule doesn't work with my new one, and the more time I spend "benched" from exercise the more my weight loss seems to sloooooow dooooown, so the committee is having a HEY DAY with that too.

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  • v ATTACKFATCAT
    You are doing exactly what you should be doing...getting all your little duckies in a row before Monday comes. There's nothing wrong with that at all. Unless you have something to be concerned about with the testing, they've offered you the job, right? So you do sort of have it in the bag. I would be doing exactly what you are doing if I were in your shoes.

    Sudden changes like that, as good as they can be for you, can also cause a lot of anxiety and worries. As long as you acknowledge that you need to readjust your work/home balance, plan for it, and then readjust again if something isn't working, I think you'll stick to your eating plan.

    People are comforted by having control over their lives and they do so through routine. Any change in that routine or unexpected events (like your injury) makes you feel less in control and thus more anxious. It's OK to feel that way and writing it down on paper (or blog) is a great way to get it out of your head a little bit.

    Just plan as best as you can and stay optimistic. You are going to do great at the job, get back into exercise, AND continue eating/sleeping well!
    1233 days ago
  • v WOUBBIE
    Hey wait a minute. Aren't you like Chairperson of the Board or something? Tell those little factotums on the committee that you're the one in charge! (And it wouldn't hurt to double up on your B complex vitamins! Good for stress and anxiety!)
    1234 days ago
  • v CHERIONE
    Holy crap. You need to spend more time with the "other" committee. You know, the one that knows the confident, successful, organized asset you'll be to the company that hires you. The weight loss strategies will carry over into your new schedule. I firmly believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason and at the perfect time. Tell the downers to take a hike, put your chin up, and go for it!
    1234 days ago
  • v 1CRAZYDOG
    It's good you to vent your feelings and get them out. It surely is normal to be nervous and anxious when starting something new . . . like your job. And of course, getting into a new and different routine is challenging as well.

    Wishing you all the best as you start your new job. Take some deep breaths if you can. HUGS
    1234 days ago
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