Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Day after tomorrow I head back to Greenville, then it's back to reality. Although I'm a little nervous about trying to fit all the puzzle pieces together, I'm also very excited to get back to my life and finishing school. It never occurred to me when I came to visit my Mom for 5 weeks how difficult this would be. Don't get me wrong I've enjoyed our time together, and it's been great to see so many of my friends I never get to see when I just come in for a weekend. But it has still been a real challenge to learn how to live with my Mom again after being on my own for so long. Plus, I just feel like my life has been put on hold. So as much as I have enjoyed this adventure, I'm ready to get my life back to being the chaotic mess I'm used to. I have discovered from this vacation that I do better when I'm busy. I have had tons of time to watch movies, read books for pleasure, and catch up on stuff that gets put off when I'm busy. The problem is I don't have a deadline so nothing actually gets done. I wake up do virtually nothing and the next thing I know the day is over & I'm complaining that I got nothing accomplished. Thankfully I have gotten that under control in the last few days, despite that fact I'm still ready for some normalcy in my life. I know it's going to take some extra effort to keep up with school, the gym, eating healthy, and making time for friends but I also know it's totally worth it. I can do anything once I make up my mind to, and right now I have the drive and determination. Today has been extremely rewarding as I have accomplished most of my to-do list and it's only 4:30. I got up and got started early today and have made real progress. The challenge today? Since I'm leaving town Thursday, I'm going to dinner with friends at B-Dubs (Buffalo Wild Wings), and after looking over the menu it doesn't look very promising. I am planning what to order now based on my calories left & once I have a plan in place I'm sure I'll do fine. Unfortunately, all the fried foods on the menu that I love don't fall in my calorie range. Surprisingly I'm not worried about it. I proved to myself the other day that I'm capable of eating out without ruining my progress, and I know I can do it again.