I suffer from emotional eating. Plain and simple. There are days when Iím not bothered at all, and days where I literally have to go to bed early because the urge to eat is so intense. Although my coping mechanisms for stress, etc have greatly improved since embarking on my weight loss journey, I still slip up.
Last night, I slipped up majorly.
It started with lunch, where I ate all of my approved and measured snacks for the day in one meal. I donít know why I did it, but I did. I didnít need to eat my salad, special k crackers, clementines, and pretzels. My frozen meal was good, and I was satisfied, but I kept going. Self sabotage at itís worst. I weighed in 1lb above my maintenance range and was so proud of myself that I went to town on my food. Since my hunger varies from day to day, Iíll sometimes go home with a lot of my snacks uneaten or a few eaten. I drank my 10oz of coffee, black (which wasnít bad at all) and still was ďhungryĒ. It wasnít a physical hunger, but an emotional one (and I know exactly why but donít want to go into it as itís not something positive to focus on). Not only had I not armed myself with my healthy eating aresenal (H.E.A. for short), but I deliberately threw my food plan out of the window for a temporary eating high. This is not to say that special k crackers or pretzels are bad for you in moderation, but normally, my snacks are spinach/apples/bananas/clement
ines/grape tomatoes/kale, etc. I didnít have any of that and could have saved myself a lot of discomfort had I planned like I was supposed to.
My binging and overeating didnít stop there though. Although I didnít have available calories left for the day, I still ate a huge cup of spaghetti, 2 slices of chocolate cake, 2 cups of light soy milk (which isnít too bad) and around 2 ounces of dark chocolate M&Ms. I was so uncomfortable from all of the food that I couldnít sleep for a while after rehearsal last night. To me, thereís nothing worse than being stuffed. I canít believe I used to be like that ALL OF THE TIME a year ago.
Today is a new day however, and Iím ready as ever to conquer my emotional eating. I forgive myself for going over my calorie range, not tracking it all when I should have and being very mean to myself throughout the day.
My snacks that may be eaten but do not HAVE to be eaten because I brought them (this point is more for me than you):
1 Cup of Green Grapes
1 Gala Apple
2 Cups of Spinach
Sounds good huh? I think so!
This is my H.E.AÖwhatís YOURS?
H - Healthy
E - Eating
A - Arsenal
Yup, I came up with that myself!