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Doctor's Visit

Tuesday, January 08, 2013

Well today was my 3 month check up with my psychiatrist for my mental health meds. I have to admit that previous statement makes me sound like a nut job, lol. But I'm slowly getting better. Anyway, he asked me about my new years resolutions and I thought about how I never posted them here. They're simple. I want to lose weight (obvious), get off the meds, and hopefully get pregnant or at least start trying, and get the bankruptcy done so I can breathe again. Well, after visiting with him, he wants me to stay at the level I'm at for at least 3 more months before evaluating if I can start weaning off or not since you can't quit that stuff cold turkey. I tried, not completely on purpose, just ran out and had to wait until payday to get refills and things didn't go well, and I admitted that to him and got in a little bit of trouble. Said that not only did I make myself sick doing that, I messed with my moods, which I did. So I need to be more vigilant on watching how low I'm getting and budgeting accordingly. Anyway, that means that I am not allowed to try to get pregnant for at least another 3 months. Am I disappointed? Yes. Very. But, I'm reminding myself that motherhood, while it is a beautiful thing and very rewarding, is extremely stressful and difficult and I need to be mentally, physically, and emotionally ready for that. Part of that is listening to my doctor because he knows better than I and he thinks I'm not ready just yet. That's okay. Healing takes time. I'm trying to remember that this minor setback gives me time to get my act even more together. Yesterday I did fantastic. I need to do it over and over again the rest of my life. I have to get my health in gear before I'm ready to be a mom. So while I am disappointed, I know it's not the end of the road. It's just a bump. So, on to more healing :)
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  • HOLLYM48
    Good for you that you are keeping this in perspective! When it is time to have a baby, then God will let you know! In the meantime, focus on getting yourself healthy and in a better place so that you can focus on the new life you will create when it is time. Children are like chocolate- savor every moment with them! But be ready for them because they are all consuming once they are here!
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    1894 days ago
    emoticon Every step forward is a step closer to where you want to be. Take care of you!!
    1897 days ago
    My sister is going through something similar. Patience is a difficult thing to have, but all things happen in their own time. My thoughts are with you.
    1898 days ago
    What an insightful post. I'm sorry it didn't turn out the way you wanted- but you are so 100% right. Healing takes time. And it's so incredibly worth it. Plus with all the hormones that come with pregnancy and their strange mood shifting ability, you want to be 100% healthy mentally before embarking on a new journey. Trust the process :)
    1899 days ago
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