Tuesday, January 08, 2013
I went to my first ever yoga class last night. I've done some using DVDs at home but never a class. When I joined the y 2 summers ago, I went to Zumba and loved it and also an interval training class which I can't say I liked that much because I don't like strength training but it was effective. So we just rejoined again cuz I felt like I just need some extra motivation right now and I really want to do some classes but I'm still so nervous about it, even though I've done it before. I have serious social anxiety and I don't really know where it comes from. In some ways I can be really crazy and outgoing but then in other ways, I almost have panic attacks in new situations and want someone to hold my hand.
So it was a big accomplishment for me to go to a class last night ALL BY MYSELF! When I got there, I went to get my little temporary card out of my wallet and it wasn't there. So I almost turned around and went home. But I didn't. I was a big girl. I called the front desk from the parking lot and asked if I could still come in and luckily I was already in the system and she remembered me from before.
It ended up being perfect timing. I wasn't so early that I needed to stand around feeling like an idiot or late so everyone already has there spot and then I come in feeling like an idiot. Very minimal idiot-feelings here.
It was pretty good. I still felt super self-conscious looking at myself in the mirror most of the class. I was definitely jiggly-er than most of the other people. Those mirrors, man.... They are top of the list of my enemies. Right under serial killers and southern drivers. (No offense if you are either a serial killer or a southern driver). So yeah, staring at my huge stomach and arms in the mirror definitely didn't help my zen but I was able to do everything. Some of it was slightly challenging but she didn't hold any poses for long so I really didn't struggle at all. I'm gonna go at some other times and see if there's any more challenging classes and maybe even try the piyo class which is Pilates and yoga combined. That will probably kick my butt.
But there were some good stretches that I think will help with my running and I felt more de-stressed after. I really wish my husband could go too but it doesn't end until after the childcare area closes so we can't both go. He needs it though so maybe we'll take turns or something. I don't know if I could talk him into doing it alone. He's weirded out by classes. Anyway....
Today is a running day and I'm working at the high school today which has a track so I'm going to use that after work.
And tomorrow I want to go to the beginner spinning class which I'm also very very anxious about. I'm only 5'0". Will I have to adjust the bike? What if I don't know how? My heart is beating faster just thinking about it and its not even tomorrow yet. I haven't done any spinning ever so I don't have a clue.... Except the little bit I've seen on biggest loser and it looks intense. I hope I can keep up. Eek!