Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Well yesterday was the five year anniversary of my boyfriend and my first date. Instead of celebrating we ended up fighting and breaking up. To give you the short version- I have a special needs child from another relationship and he creates a lot of frustration and stress for everyone. He was gone for two weeks at his biological father's and things were wonderful around the house. Apparently this was a realization for my boyfriend (now ex) that he can't cope with the demands of a special needs child. He realized that life can be enjoyable and stress free and that he didn't like the person he was (always angry and frustrated) when he was dealing with my son. So now we are trying to sort out logistics- moving out- telling my son- dividing up things- I am going to have to move to a smaller place that I can afford. So there is the added stress of that as well as dealing with my completely broken heart. He loves us and love him more then anyone I ever have but I also can't expect him to be miserable for another five years or the rest of his life. I am deeply saddened and scared for the future for me and my son- and of coarse there is not way I am going to lose weight or be able to work out now.
I was so renewed at the start of year and so excited for the future but now 7 days in I am devastated. I truly thought we would be together forever- but now it is over.